I didn’t know days could give us scars. I didn’t know a day, an hour, or a minute could put my whole life into perspective. I didn’t know any of this until August 9, 2010. Driving out to Pyramid Lake with “Teenage Dream,” by Katy Perry blaring through the speakers of my car. I called your phone over and over waiting to hear your voice. Have you ever had a realization while arriving somewhere that things just weren’t right? It’s like every sense in your body is preparing you for something you never saw coming.
I stepped out of my car, put my feet on solid ground. As I walked into the trailer you were nowhere to be found. The fire was still smoldering, the beds were still freshly made. The last ounce of faith I had soon began to fade. On the table sat your phone, your wallet, and your tips. As my mind started to race, my heart began to rip. On the phone with Bobby, Vinny, your Dad. All us knowing something had happened, and it was something bad. I sat there for an hour praying it was all just a joke, but as the sheriff pulled up, my heart slowly broke. I could see in his face he didn’t know what to say… and as the words flew from his lips, a scar formed on my heart that day.
I sat on that beach alone and afraid, thinking of us and all the promises we had made. The phone calls started flooding, everyone asking what went wrong. The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, is tell your best friends that you are gone. The week went fast but the nights were slow. The tears poured down and spirits were low. As the days went on, so did I. Spreading your smile and thanking God I’m alive. Your boys took me in, they gave me somewhere to go, and that scar on my heart had little room to grow.
There is a part of you that I plan to keep. And every night you visit me when I go to sleep. You connected the lives of many and touched many hearts. Even though you are far away I know we’re never apart. I’ll never forget the memories we’ve made, and that scar on my heart will never fade. Scars and reminders of the hurt we’ve been through and that scar on my heart will always remind me of you.
I know now that days, hours, and minutes are just as deep, and scars are something we can never lose, they are for us to keep.
I stepped out of my car, put my feet on solid ground. As I walked into the trailer you were nowhere to be found. The fire was still smoldering, the beds were still freshly made. The last ounce of faith I had soon began to fade. On the table sat your phone, your wallet, and your tips. As my mind started to race, my heart began to rip. On the phone with Bobby, Vinny, your Dad. All us knowing something had happened, and it was something bad. I sat there for an hour praying it was all just a joke, but as the sheriff pulled up, my heart slowly broke. I could see in his face he didn’t know what to say… and as the words flew from his lips, a scar formed on my heart that day.
I sat on that beach alone and afraid, thinking of us and all the promises we had made. The phone calls started flooding, everyone asking what went wrong. The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, is tell your best friends that you are gone. The week went fast but the nights were slow. The tears poured down and spirits were low. As the days went on, so did I. Spreading your smile and thanking God I’m alive. Your boys took me in, they gave me somewhere to go, and that scar on my heart had little room to grow.
There is a part of you that I plan to keep. And every night you visit me when I go to sleep. You connected the lives of many and touched many hearts. Even though you are far away I know we’re never apart. I’ll never forget the memories we’ve made, and that scar on my heart will never fade. Scars and reminders of the hurt we’ve been through and that scar on my heart will always remind me of you.
I know now that days, hours, and minutes are just as deep, and scars are something we can never lose, they are for us to keep.
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